Think any of it will sink in or will it all go over her head?
Damn, I want Kevin out of there.
Do you think Tracy is trying to bribe Kevin with all the stuff?
He told me once that he loves Tracy because she buys him stuff..
I told him I love him cuz I love his hugs and kisses.. LOL
He liked that.. (Thank goodness he is still young enough to let me!!)
Did you get Kevin all packed and set for coming to Topeka?
It’ll be so good to see him. I really got used to having him around all the
time this summer. :)
Well, hope you’ve had a good week!!
See you on Sunday!!
Yes, he is packed… we had an interesting morning as he forgot his backpack even though it was in front of the door as always. I had Dessa, and her things and mine, Kevin’s responsibility is to have his backpack and himself, but he left it. We had to go back and get it and his bus had to come back to get him… but it all worked out. He is excited about comming home b/c we are getting a cat and kittens in the garage this weekend and I have a computer that we will hook up in his room as he gets better reports in school.
Its been a hard week… today is 1 yr from when Mom died… Tues would have been their 35 wedding anniversary…
But all in all it has been good… Kids have been great… weather has been great to play after school outside… I don’t know what I would do without thiem.
Have a good weekend!
See you on Sunday… (5pm? or 6? I couldn’t remember)
Thanks for getting his stuff. :)
I’m sure Kevin is feeling your stress and that is tough for a child with as much empathy as he has. Just try to keep your feelings from leaking out too much. He is much too young to handle your pain.
Maybe that’s why he has been so emotional lately.. perhaps he is sensing your pain as this time draws near. All I ask is that you be careful around him and try not to project how you are feeling. You may need to learn to shield until he is old enough to shield himself. If Dessa is anything like him, that may be some of her problems as well. You must take responsibility for your feelings and your emotions and keep them in check around the kids.
It’s not bad to show emotions, don’t get me wrong, however, you don’t just show them, you project them. I have always noticed that… you and Trey both always projected your emotions (unintentially I believe) on everyone around you and everyone was affected by how you feel. I’m certain Michael has noticed this by now as well. He may not be aware of what it is, but I’m certain he has felt the emotional chaos.
Children as young as Kevin and Dessa cannot guard against that and they can be left confused, hurt and scared. Perhaps that is one of the reasons why Kevin is scared of you at times. (You remember when I told you that a few weeks back?) Not your actions, but rather your emotions.
Just something to think about.
Oh, btw, you never did answer my question if you told Michael’s mom that Michael was deploying as soon as he finishes school.
It may be best to keep conversations with her about happy stuff. You can even project emotions over the phone, so fear, frustration, anxiety, all leak out, and Michael’s mom is EXTREMELY sensitive. (Poor Kevin, he got sensitivity from both of his parents sides of his family). In fact, when you do talk to her, why don’t you simply talk about how good the kids are doing, how they are doing in school (good stuff) and at the babysitters, and such. Leave the negative stuff completely out of the conversation. I’m certain that you have other outlets. I’m sure even Lisa would listen if you needed to talk, but please, for Mom’s sake, don’t give her unnecessary worries and stress… thanks!! *hug*
Have a great day and a great weekend,
I’m really sorry that you are having such a tough time.