Living… yeah.. I need to get back to living.
I used to find many moments during the day when I just was.
That hasn’t happened in a while.. a long LONG while. I miss that..
I’ve a few glimpses of moments… LOL such as when I went down my son’s water slide this weekend. That was fun. :)
But they were ever so brief. I need something that can keep me strong, give me strength and help me get through these days until my job gets better or I get away from it. (damn bills or I would already be gone)
I am missing my balance. I am not complete. I am empty. I am not being fulfilled. I cannot fulfill myself.
I just need to remember that I have learned a lot since I’ve come to this job. I will now be a little more careful about what kind of job I will take in the future and I will do a lot more research.
But I have learned a lot programmatically. I am continuing to live and grow. I think if I could get my house refinance done, at least I would be going in the right direction. *sigh*
I gotta get back to normal soon.. i just gotta
July 14, 2006
Fully Present In Time
Living For The Moment Each moment of our lives is imbued with richness and magic. The passage from one second to the next is a miracle in its own right and worthy of being savored. Yet our minds tend to wander away from the present, preferring the unchangeable nature of the past or the nebulous character of the future. There is nothing inherently wrong with revisiting our personal histories or dreaming about what we hope will occur with the passage of time. To live a truly balanced life is to simultaneously embody a past, present, and future self. It is only when our ability to exist purely in the moment is lost and the joys immediately in front of us are overshadowed by the joys of the past and future that we must reestablish our connection to the present. Living in the moment empowers you to discover and appreciate what is beautiful about this unique moment in time.
Our lives are so complex and full that we tend to focus on the big picture rather than on the minute details that make up the picture. Individual moments are lost among the day’s clutter, and we are overwhelmed by the burdens, tasks, and responsibilities we must face. To cope, we spend much of our time recalling the bliss the past held or anticipating the blessings the future will bring. However, while life is often demanding and hectic, it is nonetheless made up of immeasurable moments that each carry the potential to delight. A consciousness fixed in the present exists in a state of optimal sensitivity. It responds to life as it comes, reveling in the pleasures of the moment and then gladly letting that moment go.
Grounding yourself in the present is simply a matter of practice. Breathing and moving consciously increases your awareness of how you occupy space from moment to moment. Focusing on life’s little joys and relishing everything you do will help you learn to focus wholeheartedly on the task at hand. Living in the moment means immersing yourself fully in every experience, whether positive or negative. As you learn to embrace the present in an all-encompassing way, you will come to realize that life’s magnificence is a product of its moments.
