• Fri. Dec 9th, 2022

Today I found out I was as bad as the rest

Although she says she forgives me…

As bad as the rest.. and perhaps, maybe, because I know/knew what they did to me, I was probably worse.. because I knew the pain…

And although I have blocked much of my childhood (including college) from my memories, I know that I was not always a nice person.

No excuses…  my class was horrible as a whole, but even the bits and pieces weren’t great. Those of us who were not in the “bitch” group shoulda stuck together.. and I think I was part of that not working either.

I would love to ask exactly what I did or didn’t do… but it’s not my place to ask. I did ask, I opened the door, but I don’t need to beat a dead horse. If I was supposed to know, or if I am supposed to remember, it will come to me, or she will tell me.

My high school friends were mostly people who I didn’t go to school with for 12 years. A girl from my brother’s class and a girl who I don’t think lived in Ellsworth her entire life.

And even they I didn’t keep in touch with.

Absolutely no one from Ellsworth did I ever remain consistently in touch with.  No one.

I remember only that which I want to remember, I suspect… I wonder if I can change that.

Em

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