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Explore my mood on paper?!?!?

Oct 3, 2006

A renewed sense of values and integrity may be present for you today, dear Taurus. Connecting with this can be extremely uplifting, as it can put everything into perspective for you. With your hardworking tendencies, it can be easy to drift from the things that are most important to you as a person. Make the most of this day by getting in touch with yourself. If you write a journal, explore your mood on paper.

A renewed sense of values and integrity?!?!

My mood. Pissed off, scared about Kevin, upset with the general people involved. Wondering if I’ve been taken for a fool and that the entire game between Tracy and Michael was just a ploy.

Making stupid mistakes, sticking my nose in where it doesn’t belong.

Which leads to My other scope:

Settling a dispute may be in your bowl today, dear Gemini. And you may find yourself getting caught smack in the middle of the stew if you’re not careful. If this happens, the wisest thing might be to pull out. When you’re in this position, especially with two people you care for, the outcome winds up hurting someone – and it may just be you. If you tell them you care about them both too much to get involved, chances are, you’ll be far better off.

yeah.. I’m caught smack in the middle, but it’s my SON goddammit!

So, pull out and leave it be. Yeah, that’s what my best friend told me this morning as well. I just don’t know how to do that. I am worried about my son. Scared to death sometimes. I’m prally making stupid mistakes with my communications with my ex and certainly my communications (or lack thereof) with Tracy.

And Tracy’s telling people that I’ve been calling Kevin’s school at least 2 times a week? AND that the principal is getting quite upset with me?!?!?

Well, for one, (and you can check my phone bill) I have never called Kevin’s school. Emailed his teachers, yes, but no phone calls. (Yet another Tracy lie).

And if the principal was upset with me, wouldn’t she have told me?

And yes, I’m still upset about Tracy’s lies about where Kevin got the idea that Tracy was having fun without him and that I wouldn’t let him go because it was his weekend to spend time with me.

Blah.

Is it Friday yet? Is this CF over yet? I need my ex to get back and take control of his wife (although the way things look, she will forever be in control and manipulating him and our child.) How am I NOT supposed to get involved?!?!?

yuck.
Where is that Karma which is supposed to handle such things?

Em

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2 thoughts on “Explore my mood on paper?!?!?”
  1. I think it’s kind of like the serenity prayer thingy. What things do you actually have control over? I have major issues with Jason’s daughter’s mother. I think she’s a POS mother… BUT, she cares about her daughter and her daughter likes spending time with her. The main part is that she is not in danger. Yes her house is always a stinky pig sty and her mom is totally irresponsible and half the time she doesn’t bathe, eat a nutritious meal or wear clean clothes but her life is not in danger. No it’s not ideal but those are the things that make each of us unique and have a different kind of perspective in life. They aren’t things that kill us. They are things we can look back and say “man I thought that was normal but that was really fucked up” or “omg that was funny”. I mean who grew up in a Norman Rockwell family? No one. All of our parents fucked up. I can tell you that the more you react the more you shine a light on yourself, regardless of who’s right and who’s wrong. It just makes you look obsessed.

    All we can do is make an environment in our house which we feel is the right way to be with her. We can’t control how other people’s environments are. If we felt like she was being abused or truly harmed, then we would take action. We realize that the people in her life love her, regardless of how fucked up they are. We all want what’s best for her so we sometimes just have to trust her that she’s going to be able to figure things out eventually. Kids do play adults against each other. It’s not rude against the kid. It’s what they do. Kids do see the world through kid’s eyes. Their interpretation is real for them, regardless of what the actual truth is. You have to take it with a grain of salt. When Arafel was pulling that shit, we just had all the adults sit down together and bring up each issue. She couldn’t change her stories that way. Also the adults *have* to band together, otherwise you give the kid all the power and they aren’t mature enough to deal with that kind of power.

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